with rimpi das(assamese actress)

at feri ghat, guwahati, near IIT Guwahati

who is ur best friend?

NOTE:this article is a outcome of a sad soul who feels betrayed by his best friend.

it hurts when ur best friend talks to some arbit guy and tells him that I am a loser. i dont mind being called a loser. i dont mind when some random guys say that i am a loser. i dont even mind when my best friend comes to me and say "man u r a loser". BUT, i do feel bad when he tells someone else that i am a loser.

i define best friend to be the one who supports me when i do the right thing and one who opposes me when i am about to do the wrong thing.

if he feels that i have some bad qualities, i would appreciate if he comes to me and discusses about it. if he feels that i am a loser, come to me and say it. maybe for few seconds, it might hurt. but after few seconds, i will be glad that he said so. then, maybe, we can sit down and discuss why he thinks so. this way i can analyze the wrong qualities in me and work hard to overcome them.

when i was in school, my school principal once told me "dont have best friend rather have friends. because when u have best friend, one day or the other he is going to hurt you." today, i find it so true. i used to consider this guy (my best friend) a perfect, i used to think he can do no wrong. now, i realize he does not fit my definition of perfectism.

loneliness

Note: this article was written on 17thDec 2009.

today my neighbor Vann left for home to spent christmas with his parents and friends. as he was the only person left in my lobby to company me, so here i am alone in my room and writing this random thought. staying alone sometimes can be a good experience too. it provides you all the time in the world to THINK and just THINK.

i remember when i was in class XII, i read a story about a guy who accepts a bet that if he could stay alone in a room for 25 years, he would be given some million dollar money. as per the bet, he was locked in a room with just books and food. if at any time, he decides to come of the room, he wont be awarded any money. during this period, he read all types of books and gained all the knowledge of the world that can be gained through books. when the man was just few hours away from completing his 25 years at the room, he decided to accept defeat. he accepted defeat not because he felt lonely. but because after living in the land of books, he understood that the true wealth is not money but knowledge.

the moral of the story, sometimes loneliness, if properly utilized can be a learning experience too. i have highlighted the word sometimes because i feel that staying isolated from the world for so long can change the mentality of the person as a whole. i dont think he will ever will be able to interact with another person like a normal guy. infact,i doubt if the above story can ever be a real one. staying alone in a room for 25 years, i can't imagined if such thing can happen no matter how many books or good food or even the hottest to hottest girls for sex are provided.

coming back to my life, though i am alone in my lobby, but i still have friends in other lobbies. so i guess i can experience both loneliness and companionship. so am looking forward to my days being lonely..........

end of academic actvity

I don't understand why is it so difficult to say good bye. After all, all I wanted till a year ago was to be out of this place as quickly as possible. Today, m almost about to step out of this institute, instead of being happy, i fell sad and empty.


Yesterday, I presented my bachelor's thesis project, a partial requirement for the fulfillment of B.Tech course. With this, I concluded my last academic activity at IITG. Though i have few more administrative work to be done, i can't stop feeling alien to this place.

last class.......

i am writing one of my last few articles to be updated in this blog. i have to say good bye to this blog, once m officially out of this institute. my main motive behind starting this blog was to capture some of my wonderful memories of my final year. i guess, i have fulfill that to quite a good extent. so where do i go from here? well i got few plans in my mind, like starting a new blog on environment or maybe continue with my blog "worker". though nothing decided yet.

today was a special day for me. I attended my last class at IIT Guwahati. It was an environmental management class by Dr. Chandan Mahanta. i would not say i enjoyed attending the class(there were just 3 students attending) but i felt sad after the class. the thought of no longer having to attend classes did make me feel nostalgic.

in few days to come m going to write my last end semester exam at IITG. though i havent started my preparation yet, but i dont want flunk in my last end semester exams and contaminate the wonderful memories i have of IITG life. got to write my last exams with my best effort, after all, exams are exams.

this semester has been a dream sem, not just because it is my final sem, but for various "first timers" i tried in this sem. i sat for my first job interview, dance for the first time, did a ramp walk for the first time and almost proposed a girl for the first time(though i didnt actually proposed but that's the closest i have gone ever). i could not have asked for better ending to my journey at IITG than this. thanks @ Life.

Loneliness

4 more days left to submit BTP report, m still to finished my BTP, forget abt writing the report. every morning i get up with the intention that m gona seriously work on my BTP today. but by the end of the day, either i do very little work or i postpone it for next day. now, i have started to feel lonely. i feel m the only one left to finish the BTP.

sports and me

i think my life at IITG is incomplete without talking abt sports@IITG. before coming to IIT, i never thought that i would become an active sport person as i have become now. infact, i have become a sport addict.

of all the sports that i play, tennis is the game that i have started the latest(4 years back) and is something that have attracted me the most. when i am out at the court, my mind forgets abt every happening of the world and just thinks abt my next shot. infact, there had been times when i couldnt stop myself from coming to the court even though a week later i had my end semester exams. or sometimes, i would make my mind "not to play", but when my mobile rings and ravi(my tennis patner) calls me up for the game, all i could do is to say "hey man m coming in 15 mins". besides playing, i also enjoy watching tennis matches. infact, in the last 4 years, i could hardly remember any grand slams that i didnt follow.

these days i have started to enjoy jogging too. whenever i dont play tennis, i go out for jogging in the evenings. since last few days i have started to jog at the roads of the campus as this sem being my last, jogging at the road gives me also a chance to admire the beauty of the campus. whenever i remain awake till the morning inorder to finish some assignment, i go out for jogging early in the morning(today being one of those days). i find jogging in the morning to be much more refreshing than doing so in the evening as 1.one get a chance to breathe cool and unpolluted air and 2. one also get a chance to listen to to the humming sounds made by birds.

well this brings me to the end of this article, though i have few more things running here and there in my mind, i dont want to write them now. maybe i will write abt them in few days to come.......thats all till then TC....