last night @ IITG

well its time. its time to sleep in my bed of five years for the last time. its time to get down from the train that i have been travelling for the last five years and catch the next train. its time for a new beginning. its time to say "GOOD BYE IITG".

as this being my last article in this blog, i would like to take this opportunity to thank those people who made my journey possible.

first of all, i would like to thank all the profs of CSE dept, who tried to teach me what computer science is. though i could learn only a little. but no regrets. i guess one day in future i will realize the importance of the little that i have learned. thank you all...

secondly, i want to thank all my friends at IITG for making my life at IITG what it had been. you guys have taught me the meaning of friendship. thank you guys...

thirdly, i would like to thank the whoever concern for providing such a wonderful sports facilities here. i have never seen any tennis court better than what we have here anywhere at Guwahati. nor have i seen any swimming pool better. guys thank you.....

last but not the least, i would like to thank my mom and dad for having faith in me during my stay here. i know academic wise, i could not meet mine nor my parents expectations and i feel sad for that.i guess, in life one cannot expect everything to be perfect. if my life other than acads had been a dream like, my acads could not be as i wanted it to be. i am happy with my life. learn lot of things in addition to acads.

the most important thing that i have learned from my life at IITG is "NEVER TO TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED". what i mean is that - u may be son of famous movie star or some billionaire, if u dont put effort to make ur life, ur life is going to suck. u may work hard like hell and make it to MIT,but if u stop putting constant effort after making through, all ur previous hard works will be of no use. in short, life is a sum of continuous efforts.

at this moment, i dont know whether to feel happy or sad. i guess i am going through mixed feelings.

well, this brings me to the end of my last article of this blog. thanks to all u guys for following my blog. incase u guys want to know abt my next blog please check for the link in my facebook profile http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/ankur.basumatary?ref=ts.

GOOD BYE IITG

with rimpi das(assamese actress)

at feri ghat, guwahati, near IIT Guwahati

who is ur best friend?

NOTE:this article is a outcome of a sad soul who feels betrayed by his best friend.

it hurts when ur best friend talks to some arbit guy and tells him that I am a loser. i dont mind being called a loser. i dont mind when some random guys say that i am a loser. i dont even mind when my best friend comes to me and say "man u r a loser". BUT, i do feel bad when he tells someone else that i am a loser.

i define best friend to be the one who supports me when i do the right thing and one who opposes me when i am about to do the wrong thing.

if he feels that i have some bad qualities, i would appreciate if he comes to me and discusses about it. if he feels that i am a loser, come to me and say it. maybe for few seconds, it might hurt. but after few seconds, i will be glad that he said so. then, maybe, we can sit down and discuss why he thinks so. this way i can analyze the wrong qualities in me and work hard to overcome them.

when i was in school, my school principal once told me "dont have best friend rather have friends. because when u have best friend, one day or the other he is going to hurt you." today, i find it so true. i used to consider this guy (my best friend) a perfect, i used to think he can do no wrong. now, i realize he does not fit my definition of perfectism.

loneliness

Note: this article was written on 17thDec 2009.

today my neighbor Vann left for home to spent christmas with his parents and friends. as he was the only person left in my lobby to company me, so here i am alone in my room and writing this random thought. staying alone sometimes can be a good experience too. it provides you all the time in the world to THINK and just THINK.

i remember when i was in class XII, i read a story about a guy who accepts a bet that if he could stay alone in a room for 25 years, he would be given some million dollar money. as per the bet, he was locked in a room with just books and food. if at any time, he decides to come of the room, he wont be awarded any money. during this period, he read all types of books and gained all the knowledge of the world that can be gained through books. when the man was just few hours away from completing his 25 years at the room, he decided to accept defeat. he accepted defeat not because he felt lonely. but because after living in the land of books, he understood that the true wealth is not money but knowledge.

the moral of the story, sometimes loneliness, if properly utilized can be a learning experience too. i have highlighted the word sometimes because i feel that staying isolated from the world for so long can change the mentality of the person as a whole. i dont think he will ever will be able to interact with another person like a normal guy. infact,i doubt if the above story can ever be a real one. staying alone in a room for 25 years, i can't imagined if such thing can happen no matter how many books or good food or even the hottest to hottest girls for sex are provided.

coming back to my life, though i am alone in my lobby, but i still have friends in other lobbies. so i guess i can experience both loneliness and companionship. so am looking forward to my days being lonely..........

end of academic actvity

I don't understand why is it so difficult to say good bye. After all, all I wanted till a year ago was to be out of this place as quickly as possible. Today, m almost about to step out of this institute, instead of being happy, i fell sad and empty.


Yesterday, I presented my bachelor's thesis project, a partial requirement for the fulfillment of B.Tech course. With this, I concluded my last academic activity at IITG. Though i have few more administrative work to be done, i can't stop feeling alien to this place.

last class.......

i am writing one of my last few articles to be updated in this blog. i have to say good bye to this blog, once m officially out of this institute. my main motive behind starting this blog was to capture some of my wonderful memories of my final year. i guess, i have fulfill that to quite a good extent. so where do i go from here? well i got few plans in my mind, like starting a new blog on environment or maybe continue with my blog "worker". though nothing decided yet.

today was a special day for me. I attended my last class at IIT Guwahati. It was an environmental management class by Dr. Chandan Mahanta. i would not say i enjoyed attending the class(there were just 3 students attending) but i felt sad after the class. the thought of no longer having to attend classes did make me feel nostalgic.

in few days to come m going to write my last end semester exam at IITG. though i havent started my preparation yet, but i dont want flunk in my last end semester exams and contaminate the wonderful memories i have of IITG life. got to write my last exams with my best effort, after all, exams are exams.

this semester has been a dream sem, not just because it is my final sem, but for various "first timers" i tried in this sem. i sat for my first job interview, dance for the first time, did a ramp walk for the first time and almost proposed a girl for the first time(though i didnt actually proposed but that's the closest i have gone ever). i could not have asked for better ending to my journey at IITG than this. thanks @ Life.

Loneliness

4 more days left to submit BTP report, m still to finished my BTP, forget abt writing the report. every morning i get up with the intention that m gona seriously work on my BTP today. but by the end of the day, either i do very little work or i postpone it for next day. now, i have started to feel lonely. i feel m the only one left to finish the BTP.

sports and me

i think my life at IITG is incomplete without talking abt sports@IITG. before coming to IIT, i never thought that i would become an active sport person as i have become now. infact, i have become a sport addict.

of all the sports that i play, tennis is the game that i have started the latest(4 years back) and is something that have attracted me the most. when i am out at the court, my mind forgets abt every happening of the world and just thinks abt my next shot. infact, there had been times when i couldnt stop myself from coming to the court even though a week later i had my end semester exams. or sometimes, i would make my mind "not to play", but when my mobile rings and ravi(my tennis patner) calls me up for the game, all i could do is to say "hey man m coming in 15 mins". besides playing, i also enjoy watching tennis matches. infact, in the last 4 years, i could hardly remember any grand slams that i didnt follow.

these days i have started to enjoy jogging too. whenever i dont play tennis, i go out for jogging in the evenings. since last few days i have started to jog at the roads of the campus as this sem being my last, jogging at the road gives me also a chance to admire the beauty of the campus. whenever i remain awake till the morning inorder to finish some assignment, i go out for jogging early in the morning(today being one of those days). i find jogging in the morning to be much more refreshing than doing so in the evening as 1.one get a chance to breathe cool and unpolluted air and 2. one also get a chance to listen to to the humming sounds made by birds.

well this brings me to the end of this article, though i have few more things running here and there in my mind, i dont want to write them now. maybe i will write abt them in few days to come.......thats all till then TC....

long goodbye to college days

it is said that time waits for no one. its our responsibility to walk along with time. in everyone's life, time comes when he has to say goodbye to his present world and enter an unknown world. well, that time has come for me too. in few days m going to graduate and say bye to a place that has been my home for the last 5 years of my life. i fell sad sometimes thinking abt it. sometimes when i sit alone in the lab at night, i start to realize how much i am going to miss this lab, my lab comp, my cabin.

these days i have stop jogging at the athletics ground and instead i jog on the roads of our campus. m going to continue it for the rest of my days at iitg. jogging on the road allows me to associate myself more to the beauty of this campus. it also allows me to fill more wonderful memories of this institute in my mind.

today nitin was telling me abt how much he is going to miss his friends and how his journey was being made easy with the support of his friends. though he was drunk when he said that, i am sure he meant each and every word of it.i think our college life is never that easy, but with the support of our friends , the journey becomes a memorable one. i have made some great friends here. some of them i guess, might be in touch for the rest of our lives and to some i might no longer see them again(i pray that does not happen). that's the sad part abt life. guys m going to miss u all and love u all. there are also guys whom i could not be friends with in spite of me putting some effort to be so, maybe some of us are never made to be friends, guys i m going to miss u guys too.

looking ahead, i sense some fear abt my future. u start to ask urself "am i going to get job?", " am i going to do well in job?" and all sort of questions comes here and there now a days. i guess that natural.

still got few days left here, so lot of enjoyment left..........
here is the link to some of my pics: http://picasaweb.google.co.in/home

Bohagor duardolit 2010@ IITG

crazy life

life can be crazy sometimes. sometimes, things just suddenly come out of nowhere and change ur life.like for example, in life one aims to be something and some of us ended up becoming something else. he does things to achieve something and in the end, he achieves something else.........

at this moment, i want to reflect of some of the good things that life has endowed me with. sometimes, i guess we people(including me) are so used to talking of all unwanted things that life surprises us with that we forget abt all the good things that life has provided us with. first thing abt life that i would like to mention and thank life is for providing me with all the organs and body parts that any ideal human body should have. i have seen people in my life born without legs, without eyes, without tongue and in some cases with no legs and hands. just wonder how these guys might be living their lives. at least, i am lucky enough not to fall in any of the above category.

during my school days, i was never a good student, i can recall from class II till class VIII, there haven't been a year when i passed the annual examination without consideration(i.e promoting u to next class in spite of failing in some subjects). none including me was expecting myself to pass my 10th board exams with even some 50 percentage marks. but things were not suppose to happen as it was expected and things started to turn around. suddenly our principal of the school got transferred and we got a new principal. he name was Bro. Albert, he was just 27 years old when he came to our school as a principal and was very strict and disciplinary man. initially no one including me like him. slowly with time we started to bond together and we became sort of a friend and suddenly i started to like studies, and this was the turning point of my life. i passed out my 10th my 71 percentage marks. though this percentage might sound small for some of us, it was huge for me. after my board exams, i had to leave the school but his principles remained with me and by following his principles i passed my 12th exam and cleared JEE. sometimes i wonder what would have happened to me had I would have not met Bro Albert? had i would have been here? well that's a big question mark. that why i feel that life is crazy, certain things come out of nowhere and after that ur life is no longer the same.

today, i sit in my room alone wondering abt my long future. after 1 and a 1/2 month, m going to graduate and then what next? job, well i dont have job. so what else? i guess life has some surprise for me.

the last five years of my life had been a wonderful learning experiences. i believed things that i have learned in past 5 years are going to shape my future. m looking forward for my life after graduation. but before that, i got to live my last few and wonderful days left at IIT Guwahati.

a wonderful day

NOte: this article was written someday on dec 2009.

what a day it was today, it was a day that i always dreamed of. the temperature, the cold breeze, and the lite sunlight at noon all made the day really perfect. it was an ideal weather that any nature loving guy would die to experience. there was hardly anything i could have changed to make this day more beautiful if given a chance to do so. on this day, our campus looked really beautiful, in fact it seamed to me that this campus is specially designed for such climate. the small trees around the campus, the migratory birds at the lake and the lake itself further added more beauty to this countryside.

perhaps if someone somewhere someday asks me to define perfect-ism, this day would be the answer. with this note, i want to thank the creator for such a wonderful day, that i could have asked for.

abt me

when many of ur friends write so many good things abt u in their testi, u start to ask urself " wow m i really that good". infact, the flattering thing is that some of the qualities that my friends wrote abt me are even unknown to me. one of the reason maybe because we are so much interested in knowing abt the good and bad things of others that we unintentionally fail to think abt ourself. for instance, in 2 out of my 3 interviews ( i failed in all 3), i had been asked this question "tell me abt urself", which should be the easiest question that any interviewer is ever going to ask, after all if we don't abt ourself who else will. ironically, this question came out to be the toughest of all for some of us, i had to ask to some of my friends who had already being asked this question in their interviews abt how to approach this question. while some suggested me to tell little bit abt my family background and hobbies, others suggested me not to mention abt my family background and instead say that "i am innovating person, i like to learn new things in new environment etc etc........ ...." ultimately, it was for me to decide what to say when i am asked "tell me abt urself". what i wanted to say from the above incident is that sometimes knowing abt urself can be one of the most confusing question of our life. ofcouse the question is meaningless for guys who seriously think and know abt themselves.

i want to thank all my friends who have written testi for me, guys thank you and thank you for seeing good things in me.

in my next article, i will write abt what i think abt myself.....

right now....

its being long time since i wrote my last blog. reason, i didnt feel like writing, to be honest i didnt have the motivation to write any more because of my placement situation, almost all my friends are placed and i am among the last few to be placed yet. i thought i would continue with my writing soon after i get placed. well, now i honestly dont see that happening anywhere. i have cried over it and tried to find someone to blame for my situation. at the end i could hardly find anyone but myself to blame for the situation.now, i came to conclusion that if i continue to cry and blame myself and just hope everything is going to be fine without any effort from my myside, the situation is not just going to be wrost but also m going to further hurt my future too. the moral of the story "enjoy ur life- when one door closes , another door opens up so keep trying, every dog has his day".

i have always fantasized abt what to do in my final sem at iitg. i used to say myself that i will do that, i will do this in my final sem. well its already 20 days in final sem and i have done none of those things that i fantasied about. the reason, all those dreams were dreamed holding into account that i would get job before the start of my final sem. now the question is that "should i stop enjoying my final sem just because i havent got job yet?" or "should i enjoy it anyway ?". its very easy to chose the later because it sounds optimistic and that's what heroes do in movies anyway. now if i look my life 10 years from now, i definitely see myself still doing what i want to do. from that time frame, if i reflect back my life today and find out that i did intentionally made my life a hell, well definitely i would regret. that's not something that i would like to see myself from that time frame, so thats the reason, i am going to chose what the desi or bedesi heroes in movies would have done i.e enjoy my life in way that i have always dreamed of..................

PS: this article was written 20 days before being published here.