last night @ IITG

well its time. its time to sleep in my bed of five years for the last time. its time to get down from the train that i have been travelling for the last five years and catch the next train. its time for a new beginning. its time to say "GOOD BYE IITG".

as this being my last article in this blog, i would like to take this opportunity to thank those people who made my journey possible.

first of all, i would like to thank all the profs of CSE dept, who tried to teach me what computer science is. though i could learn only a little. but no regrets. i guess one day in future i will realize the importance of the little that i have learned. thank you all...

secondly, i want to thank all my friends at IITG for making my life at IITG what it had been. you guys have taught me the meaning of friendship. thank you guys...

thirdly, i would like to thank the whoever concern for providing such a wonderful sports facilities here. i have never seen any tennis court better than what we have here anywhere at Guwahati. nor have i seen any swimming pool better. guys thank you.....

last but not the least, i would like to thank my mom and dad for having faith in me during my stay here. i know academic wise, i could not meet mine nor my parents expectations and i feel sad for that.i guess, in life one cannot expect everything to be perfect. if my life other than acads had been a dream like, my acads could not be as i wanted it to be. i am happy with my life. learn lot of things in addition to acads.

the most important thing that i have learned from my life at IITG is "NEVER TO TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED". what i mean is that - u may be son of famous movie star or some billionaire, if u dont put effort to make ur life, ur life is going to suck. u may work hard like hell and make it to MIT,but if u stop putting constant effort after making through, all ur previous hard works will be of no use. in short, life is a sum of continuous efforts.

at this moment, i dont know whether to feel happy or sad. i guess i am going through mixed feelings.

well, this brings me to the end of my last article of this blog. thanks to all u guys for following my blog. incase u guys want to know abt my next blog please check for the link in my facebook profile http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/ankur.basumatary?ref=ts.

GOOD BYE IITG

with rimpi das(assamese actress)

at feri ghat, guwahati, near IIT Guwahati

who is ur best friend?

NOTE:this article is a outcome of a sad soul who feels betrayed by his best friend.

it hurts when ur best friend talks to some arbit guy and tells him that I am a loser. i dont mind being called a loser. i dont mind when some random guys say that i am a loser. i dont even mind when my best friend comes to me and say "man u r a loser". BUT, i do feel bad when he tells someone else that i am a loser.

i define best friend to be the one who supports me when i do the right thing and one who opposes me when i am about to do the wrong thing.

if he feels that i have some bad qualities, i would appreciate if he comes to me and discusses about it. if he feels that i am a loser, come to me and say it. maybe for few seconds, it might hurt. but after few seconds, i will be glad that he said so. then, maybe, we can sit down and discuss why he thinks so. this way i can analyze the wrong qualities in me and work hard to overcome them.

when i was in school, my school principal once told me "dont have best friend rather have friends. because when u have best friend, one day or the other he is going to hurt you." today, i find it so true. i used to consider this guy (my best friend) a perfect, i used to think he can do no wrong. now, i realize he does not fit my definition of perfectism.

loneliness

Note: this article was written on 17thDec 2009.

today my neighbor Vann left for home to spent christmas with his parents and friends. as he was the only person left in my lobby to company me, so here i am alone in my room and writing this random thought. staying alone sometimes can be a good experience too. it provides you all the time in the world to THINK and just THINK.

i remember when i was in class XII, i read a story about a guy who accepts a bet that if he could stay alone in a room for 25 years, he would be given some million dollar money. as per the bet, he was locked in a room with just books and food. if at any time, he decides to come of the room, he wont be awarded any money. during this period, he read all types of books and gained all the knowledge of the world that can be gained through books. when the man was just few hours away from completing his 25 years at the room, he decided to accept defeat. he accepted defeat not because he felt lonely. but because after living in the land of books, he understood that the true wealth is not money but knowledge.

the moral of the story, sometimes loneliness, if properly utilized can be a learning experience too. i have highlighted the word sometimes because i feel that staying isolated from the world for so long can change the mentality of the person as a whole. i dont think he will ever will be able to interact with another person like a normal guy. infact,i doubt if the above story can ever be a real one. staying alone in a room for 25 years, i can't imagined if such thing can happen no matter how many books or good food or even the hottest to hottest girls for sex are provided.

coming back to my life, though i am alone in my lobby, but i still have friends in other lobbies. so i guess i can experience both loneliness and companionship. so am looking forward to my days being lonely..........

end of academic actvity

I don't understand why is it so difficult to say good bye. After all, all I wanted till a year ago was to be out of this place as quickly as possible. Today, m almost about to step out of this institute, instead of being happy, i fell sad and empty.


Yesterday, I presented my bachelor's thesis project, a partial requirement for the fulfillment of B.Tech course. With this, I concluded my last academic activity at IITG. Though i have few more administrative work to be done, i can't stop feeling alien to this place.

last class.......

i am writing one of my last few articles to be updated in this blog. i have to say good bye to this blog, once m officially out of this institute. my main motive behind starting this blog was to capture some of my wonderful memories of my final year. i guess, i have fulfill that to quite a good extent. so where do i go from here? well i got few plans in my mind, like starting a new blog on environment or maybe continue with my blog "worker". though nothing decided yet.

today was a special day for me. I attended my last class at IIT Guwahati. It was an environmental management class by Dr. Chandan Mahanta. i would not say i enjoyed attending the class(there were just 3 students attending) but i felt sad after the class. the thought of no longer having to attend classes did make me feel nostalgic.

in few days to come m going to write my last end semester exam at IITG. though i havent started my preparation yet, but i dont want flunk in my last end semester exams and contaminate the wonderful memories i have of IITG life. got to write my last exams with my best effort, after all, exams are exams.

this semester has been a dream sem, not just because it is my final sem, but for various "first timers" i tried in this sem. i sat for my first job interview, dance for the first time, did a ramp walk for the first time and almost proposed a girl for the first time(though i didnt actually proposed but that's the closest i have gone ever). i could not have asked for better ending to my journey at IITG than this. thanks @ Life.

Loneliness

4 more days left to submit BTP report, m still to finished my BTP, forget abt writing the report. every morning i get up with the intention that m gona seriously work on my BTP today. but by the end of the day, either i do very little work or i postpone it for next day. now, i have started to feel lonely. i feel m the only one left to finish the BTP.